Why is it that not one religion has a likable god figure. I was raised Christian and I still have panic attacks about what a bearded sky monster is going to do to me, not just after death, but literally at any moment. That’s the benefit of early indoctrination. I can’t escape it. I know it’s very unlikely to be real. I know that science has brought us satellites and space travel while religion has brought us great suffering, countless wars and staggering inequality.
I know religion is bunk, but I’m hopeful there is something out there. I know you think you’ve found it, but if you’re Christian or Hindu or Jewish or Muslim (or the other even more obviously ridiculous religions) you’re most likely wasting your time.